deppression

i took 2 freaking years to study my diploma.
and first year i failed introduction to economics and statistics 1;
and the second year is to repeat those failed subjects.

i paid more attention and do more practices.
worked hard for a whole year...

waiting for the results after my exam and it turns out to be very very disappointed.
i failed that two subjects again...

2 days before today:
i went to visit my aunt.
she was asking about my exam results.
and i told her that i have phobia receiving my results due to the failure last year.
and she dont except this reason to be the reason why i have no idea of passing the paper or not.
then she was saying that paul is not a compatible boyfriend to me.
which he have no intention or eagerness of doing any other things other than playing with his digital devices.
and pointing out that he doesn't like children might end up to be another person like my father.

which all of this cause me to be very upset.
as i was staying over my aunt's place, i held my tears for the whole night, couldn't sleep till 4.30am.
and cried it out in the morning when i reached home.

yesterday went out with my roommate and another friend of mine wanted to join us and i thought that it will be fine but the day turns out to be very exhausted as that friend of mine is very irritating...

then today she woke me up to inform me about the result is out...
and when i check it out it turn out to be the worse nightmare of mine...
and its 2 MARKS more to pass the fucking statistics.
i've been spending that 12 months before this and done tons of practices and yet i failed twice which i do not deserve this.
and when i phoned up the course coordinator and she said that nothing can be done as they will only check the administration error that occurs.

so in the end its just WHAT THE FUCK...