Sunday, May 24, 2009

a post for a stupid retard~

for once, i was really quite angry with the particular stupid retard.
first of all, he lies a lot;
second of all, he does not respect what you have said...
and third, he is like a lady, a very talkative lady that can spread words and lies to thousands of people in a minute...

for once, i was really quite angry with him...
but always forgive him due to the thought of "he's still a child"...
but till now, i guess that, that "child" have to grow up someday!
can't be fooling around all the time~

once, i gone back to hometown, phone him up and planned to meet up...
well, i did mentioned not to bring someone that i don't know as he wanted to bring someone that looked alike one of my friend...
but in the end he still brought his friend over...
in order not to make his friend to feel bad, i kept quiet though i was quite pissed off~

but then, now when i thought back,
it was quite an experience...
haha...
may be most of the times i'm just taking things too serious...
may be most of the times i'm just worrying too much...
well~
that s mainly due to what i've been to...
or may be its because i'm capricorn?
lol

anyway, i'm glad that i get to know this friend.
but still, as friend, i advice him to cut down lies...
lol

holiday...

its finally holiday...
haha...
after so long studying... preparing for exams... doing and practicing questions like mad...
i finally can REST for a while...
sigh.

but still need to look for job~
currently looking forward for a job in a dog cafe~ which is not yet to be confirmed...
and! tuition, of course~
haha...
may be telemarketer...
great...

the best thing is, singapore is super damn it discriminative!
same situation, holding student pass and studying in singapore's college and universities, the word "private" and "local" makes a damn lot of difference!
makes us cant get transport subsidy (its fine! i can understand...), and the thing is, forbidden us from working!
what the hack!
so unfair...
:(
last time i worked and got seen by some stupid admin people and get a verbal warning!
wth~

Friday, May 22, 2009

什么时候放下,什么时候就没有烦恼

一直以为已经忘了,
以为已经放下了,
已经不再把心放进去了……

哪知,就一封电邮就把我给抛会从前……

如果……
如果此事从没发生过,那可好~

如果……
如果他不生于此家庭,那可好~

如果……
如果他不……,那可好~

如果一切都根据本人的如果……
那多好~


心动不是选择……
如果可以选择我宁可不心动~
也不要知道心动的感觉……
因那是件苦差……
苦就苦在动了却不可行……

明明眼前有块提拉米苏,已经吃了一大半,
可是之前吃过两口的乳酪蛋糕味却又在吃提拉米苏的时候醒觉……
我却不想去感觉……
想偏离现实却又被硬生生给拉回来……

明明知道什么时候把它给放下,什么时候就没烦恼……
可是就是放了又拿,拿了又想放,被塞进手里,却参杂着罪恶、不安、亏欠、不甘、和一丝丝的甘饴以及兴奋……

明明知道不可行……
会让很多人失望、失去信心……

因此,真的很讨厌心动的感觉……
一方甘心等待以此物为囊中物,另一方却不加以珍惜、明知不可能却像得到……

男人哪~
祸水也~
本性如是也,无可救药……
女人保重……